I hate the fact that I have no energy these days. Not to mention I ache all over. They tell me in a few months I’ll have more energy but I’m hoping it’s sooner. It’s just too much to keep up with everything when I’m still tired all the time after sleeping.
They have moved Jim’s dad home from the hospital. Jim’s mom and brother decided that he had a stroke on Thursday and enacted a DNR as well as discontinued all feeding, fluids, blood pressure medication and insulin. But apparently he’s not in a persistive vegetated state. He still talks and asks for his dogs. It’s just weird. Anyway, we got a call this morning that his mom is having a big family dinner tonight and we are invited. Oh goody! I already won’t be going on the grounds of I refuse to be around this woman. Jim called him mom and told her he wouldn’t be there because he thinks it’s cruel for everyone to sit around and have a big steak dinner when they aren’t feeding his dad. This family is weird I tell you. It’s insane.
We did go out shopping yesterday and got Harley some new toys. Her favorite new toy is a retrieving dummy. Digital sketch by Jen Caputo. Paper and elements are from the ASPCA kit organized by Holly McCaig Designs with contributions by many digital artists.
Jim really seems to enjoy watching American Idol. I can take it or leave it. Tonight we’re both kind of vegging out in the living room and since there is nothing else on we’re listening to the women… we watched the men last night. So far I haven’t been blown away this year. Cosmo and Harly have both been pretty high energy tonight so we’re happy that they’re both laying down quietly right now.
This is a photo from our wedding when we were leaving the church. They told us to kill time before getting to the reception so we took a spin through the McDonald’s drive thru since we were both hot and thirsty. We caused quite a stir – apparently they don’t get a lot of newlyweds in the drive thru.
Layout is Emily by Miss Kim. Papers and embellishments are Jen Wilson’s Winter Blues for DST.
It’s kind of funny… my Mom left for Hong Kong this morning and even though I don’t see her every day I already miss her. We do talk nearly every day on the phone, just checking in. I’m glad she’s on the vacation of a lifetime and doing what she wants, but part of me doesn’t like having her so far away. I should have taken her to the airport but between being sick this week and having deadlines I totally wimped and had my Uncle take her.
It’s finally Wednesday… halfway through the week. I am so ready for the weekend.
We had a large federal grant due today and I’m so happy that it is done.
The layout is of Cosmo trying to teach Harley to sit. The layout is Tiffany by Miss Kim, paper and embellishments are Puppy Love downloaded at Atomic Cupcake.
I always thought that when I got married it would be an additional wonderful family. Oh boy was I wrong. To put it mildly my mother-in-law hates me and in the past three years has made it no secret that she doesn’t think I should have married her son. She pretty much disowned us right after our marriage. We got invited over to their house for Sunday lunch once… it was a disaster. She and her husband were blatantly rude. I felt no need to go back, not a problem, we weren’t invited. I guess because I just sat there and took it and didn’t stoop to her level she decided it wouldn’t be any fun. I made a deal with my husband… I would go back when we were invited and I would continue to play nice but if she couldn’t shape up by the time we announced we were pregnant all bets were off the table because the last thing I was going to do is be made “acceptable” by having a baby. Well, turns out we didn’t even get to that point. In November when I was in New York she decided to bring a “friend” (I use that term loosely because she’s badmouthed this woman in front of me) over to MY house, unannounced to tell my husband how horrible I am and how I am keeping him from seeing her. Totally not true. Every contact he has had with her since we’ve been married has been at my proding or flat out insisting, “I’m not talking to you anymore until you go over and check on your parents”. Well… for some reason he felt compelled to tell me about his mom coming over shortly after it happened. That was the straw that broke the camels back. I decided that if she could disown us, I could disown her. And I did. I told Jim I would not see her even if invited. I was done being open to the fact that she could possibly change and if we ever did get pregnant under NO circumstance would she be allowed around our child. She plays favorites among her other grandchildren to the point where it is noticeable to the children. Her youngest son’s children are the “golden grandchildren” because they belong to the “golden child”, her daughters children are acceptable but she does play favorites among them. One of my nieces has always struggled with her weight and has a bit of a speech impediment and dear grandma treats her differently. Which is too bad because if you take time to talk to her she has the sweetest spirt and is a pretty deep thinker.
Well, life was going along pretty well. I disowned the in-laws and there really was no change in things until this week. Father in Law is sick. I’m not a big fan of him either. He does some things that I just find abominible… specifically making fun of anyone if they have some sort of religous faith. But he did enlighten me to the fact that Mary wasn’t a virgin, her mother was… uh, huh. Whatever dude. Well, he’s sick and in the hospital now and the family dysfunction is coming out full force. Golden Child was called in from Columbia to make all the deicsions but of course had to leave after four days. However he did manage to call his sister (who he disowned years ago) to tell her she needs to get to town now because Dad is dying. Of course, my husband who lives here has been pretty much ignored through the whole scenario. He was at the hospital Thursday morning when his brother got there and told him he could leave because they were having a team of people come in to discuss his dad’s treatment and he’d just be in the way… some nerve.
I adore Jim’s sister. I wish she lived here. We always have a good time when we get together. The bad thing is she is pretty upset that the family doesn’t get along. She does acknowledge that her mom is pretty good at stirring things up and causing controversy but so wishes that it was different. She came into town today and came over to our house tonight for dinner. The conversation afterwards was pretty deep. She and I had talked for a long time on the phone Tuesday and she knows that we are expecting. Jim’s parents do not. She’s worried that her mom and other brother don’t really tell anyone what goes on. She’s worried that if her dad dies the funeral will be awkward because no one gets along. She asked me specifically what I was going to do about the funeral. I told her I would support my husband however he needed it. I know how to behave in public. I will not make a scene. That’s totally not me.
I was also given the chance to kind of “defend” myself tonight. I explained to her that there are things about JIm and I’s marriage that she doesn’t know, that only he and I know. We have had problems, show me a couple who hasn’t, and we deal with them. That her family doesn’t know everything that has gone on and I’m tired of being judged and considered a bad person by her mother when she doesn’t know all the facts. I know Jim’s first wife had only been gone nine months before we met – he was a widower. I didn’t initiate the relationship – he did. I’m sorry if the fact that I make him happy makes her crazy. I’m sorry that everyone else looks over her rude comments and takes the attitude, that’s just her. I’m the one who has sent Jim to his parent’s house EVERY time he’s gone the past two years.
Jim has constantly asked me this week what he should do. When he got the call his dad was going to the ER and he needed to get over there (from his brother who basically told him to go until HE could get there) had asked me how long he should stay. I had no idea, I told him to stay as long as he thought he needed to. This is all so foreign to me. When my dad was ill I was always at the hopsital. Before work every morning, back every night. Staying as long as needed. I was there when my dad passed and wouldn’t have had it any other way. My Mom and I talk on the phone almost every day. We have for as long as I can remember. Some days it’s really short just sort of checking in. With Jim’s family he and his sister spent time tonight putting together all the pieces they’ve been told by either their mom or their brother about their dad’s condition to try to figure out what is really going on. His sister has been trying to find out what final arrangements have been made and her mother won’t tell her, only that their brother knows everything and that’s good enough.
The next few weeks should be interesting. I don’t need this stress right now. I support my husband. I let him use me as a sounding board, I give my advice as unbiased as possible. I don’t need anyone judging me.
I love our Sundays. Jim gets up and goes to the store and brings home Starbucks and pastries, we lie in bed and read the paper and talk about just about anything, something we’ve read in the paper, what we want to do today, whatever is on our mind.
After breakfast this morning I called my friend Ginnie. Ginnie is a riot. She has the best family stories – scandal, intrigue… it’s all fascinating since my own family is relatively low key. After talking to her about an hour I told Jim I needed to go to Best Buy to get a new card reader. Our tower computer has card readers built in so I have to download all pictures to it then transfer to jump drive to use on either of the laptops… it would be so much easier to just get a portable card reader. Since the three cameras we use right now all have their own cards I went ahead and got the 12 in 1 by SanDisk… it’s awesome. Now I can transfer pictures whenever, whereever and don’t have to keep up with a million cords.
Jim also wanted to run back to Bed, Bath & Beyond. When we were there yesterday he found this. It’s called Kapoosh and it’s a butcher block that the “guts” are a bunch of little plastic pins that allow you to slide knives in any way you want, you’re not limited to just the regular slots. So he now has a way to store his knives that don’t fit in the other butcher block. Such a simple solution, wish I had thought of it. I also like that the “guts” come out so they can be washed and sanitized.
We’re having kind of a lazy Saturday around here. Jim’s Dad is in the hospital so he went by to check on him this morning before his doctor’s appointment… he still has this sinus infection that is hanging on. $91 in prescriptions later we hope he’ll be better soon. I laid around for a while before running to Target to get some stuff we needed.
When Jim got home he needed to go out and get a new shirt for his company’s diner tonight. It’s an ok function but it seems like they always have it on the coldest night of the year. While we were at Kohl’s we happened by the baby department and they were having an 80% off sale and I found some things for next winter. At 80% off I couldn’t resist.
After lunch we headed to Bed, Bath & Beyond because our shower shampoo dispenser apparently crashed in the middle of the night last week sending liquid soap and shampoo all over the shower. However, I can’t live without this little device it seems. It’s so convenient to have everything mounted on the wall and not having to have a lot of bottles in our small shower area. Jim found a great candle tray for our new shelves in the living room. I found a neck pillow with lavendar that can be microwaved to hopefully help with some of these headaches I’ve been having.
Got home and Jim is taking a nap while I veg out with some scrapbooking stuff. Pretty soon I’m going to have to go start getting ready for tonight. Personally I’d rather curl up with Jim tonight but politically going to the party is the correct thing to do.
The layout is of my niece’s 14th birthday. The template is Miss Kim’s Jessica, paper and embellishments are Cake and Candles kit by Heather Ann Designs.
Jim surprised me at work today with flowers and chocolate. I read a study from Finland that said women who ate chocolate every day of their pregnancy had happier babies… all for happy babies! Of course, working in an office with 50 women I had to hear the rest of the day how wonderful my husband is… I know! 🙂
Tonight I’m lying here in bed watching the snow come down and cars struggle to get up the hill. I wouldn’t be against a snow day tomorrow but I do need to keep my doctor’s appointment tomorrow morning so I hope the roads are clear. Kansas City is nortorious for doing a crummy job clearing our roads north of the river. You can really tell the difference when you cross into Gladstone.
It was raining when I got home from work and changed over to snow about 9. Harley of course loves the wet, sloppy yard and constantly wanted out tonight. Therefore I have a lot of paw prints to clean up since she doesn’t come in and sit for a minute so I can towel her off. She had to race through the room then come over to be toweled off.
Also need to get Jim’s Valentine’s Day gift tomorrow. I think I’m getting him some cigars. I’m not sure… this one just kinda crept up on me. I’ve made him a little year in review scrapbook every year for Valentine’s Day but he might get that late this year… we didn’t really take a lot of pictures this year.
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